I had to write this somewhere.
I just got home from taking my driving test and passing first time! I didn’t really want to do the ‘taking a picture and posting it on your socials thing’, but I sent a picture to my close friends. I even, out of excitement, tweeted about it. From that I’ve received congratulation messages and those few cheeky messages talking about how I’m now their Uber. Lol.
I’ve now just seen a tweet by someone saying “you are building your own house and buying your own car next year”. Now I’m not really looking towards a house at the moment. I want to be in a good stable job before I do that. The car on the other hand, I want that, so as of now I’m speaking it into existence and claiming it!
Every major thing that I said I would do before the year ends, I’ve done. I’ve really been on this ‘speaking things into existence’ tip, and it’s all really happened. Here is the three major things that I wanted:
I said that uni would not kill me and that I would graduate with a 2:1. I did want that 1st but I knew that there would be the big possibility that I wouldn’t get it. So instead I aimed for that 2:1. There was a time nearer to the end of my degree where I thought I wouldn’t even get that, and that I would instead graduate with a 2:2. But I prayed and said to God that if that was his will, I would be content with it. On September 11th, God blessed me and gave me what I had originally wanted. I graduated with a 2:1 and started my Masters the very next day.
I said that upon moving back home, I would secure a part time job to get me through my final degree. It didn’t happen as fast as I wanted it to. I had applied from early and had wanted to be working throughout the summer break. I didn’t work for any of the summer break, and it really had me down. My stepmom even thought that I was depressed; that’s how low my moods were. All I could see is that my plans hadn’t happened and I wouldn’t be able to do what I had wanted to do. I had wanted to take off the financial strain off of my parents and be able to pay for more things myself. Not only that, but I didn’t like the idea of fully supporting myself at uni due to my part time job, to then having to come home and fully depend on my parents. Yes it’s nice to not have to pay for everything, but I had liked the idea of them not having to worry about that. I didn’t get a job until the end of August, but regardless I still got a job.
I had said that I would pass my driving test by the end of the year, and I did with only 2 minors. I started learning in 6th form, but due to me going to a uni outside of London, not wanting to change my instructor and also not actually having done my theory test until my second year of uni, I was unable to take my test. This has irritated me for the longest, because why didn’t I just do my theory when my family said I should? I even passed first time so clearly I was more than capable. But I didn’t, so I made a promise that I would get it before the year ended, and also before my theory expired (that being January 2nd 2019 lol). And like I’ve repeatedly said, I did it.
Everything I said I would do I did it, but not only that, I brought every one of these areas to God. Before my final exam I prayed before going into the hall, before I opened the paper, when I closed the paper and again when I got back home. I’ve been doing this since Secondary School and now I do it for every piece of coursework. I prayed for every job application that I sent out and asked him to help me while I completed the application. I prayed last night, this morning when I woke up, before I drove off with my instructor, and I will be praying again to thank him later. I’ve been thanking God since my instructor dropped me back home, but I want to actually kneel down and pray properly.
What I’m trying to say is that with everything you do, believe in it, especially when those people around you try to convince you that you can’t do it. So many people thought I wouldn’t pass my test before the end of the year, and when I did, I messaged every single one to tell them “I told you so!”. Speak things into existence! It’s not just a saying, it’s a way of life. It actually helps you to believe that it will happen. And for those who believe in God, ask him to help you and be with you in everything you do, because with God all things are possible. My faith isn’t all that strong at the moment, but I believe that with him I can do all things. This is why Proverbs 3:5-6 is my favourite text. It says: “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not on thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he will direct thy parts”. Don’t be disheartened if it doesn’t happen the way you want or expect, but trust the process.
You can do everything you put your mind to, because if you don’t believe in your own sauce, who will?
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