There was nothing left to feel. Everything he had left was gone. Instead, the only feeling he felt was numbness; numbness to the situation, numbness to her, numbness to life. The funny thing is that the outcome didn’t completely surprise him, he had had a feeling that this was coming. But that didn’t stop the reality of it all from stinging like never before, because it was no longer just a thought or an idea, it was now actually real life.
It was just a bit too overwhelming. He had been happy, so happy, that he had been afraid to even talk about it out of fear that this happiness would end. He did recently voice it and indulged in the idea that this could actually be something, maybe not now, but one day. Except now he was here at the end, living his worst nightmare. It had all just happened too fast that he wasn’t quite ready to accept it. But the saddest part is that to him it was inevitable. To him, nothing lasted forever.
It upset him though, because she was different, she was so different from the others. A nice different. A happy different. A refreshing different. She had something about her that he couldn’t quite put his finger on. Something that grabbed him in the beginning and held him to the end. Something that he felt ultimately kept him going. After all, curiosity was his weakness. But that ‘something’ had subsequently led him to where he was now. Back to the familiar feeling. Back to feeling numb.
I eat cake 