Probably a redundant question because we’re all going through it one way or another. Whether it be due to loosing someone close, not being able to work or completely loosing a job or even having to re-adjust to seeing those we live with 24/7. Most people probably didn’t even realise how much the last one would have affected them, but bruh. And you can’t even really get a proper break? It’s a lot. I love my family, but whew.
My 2020 appears to have gotten a lot busier since being in lockdown. Simply ironic as you would think that now that I’m at home all the time, I would now have a lot more time on my hands. False. Completely and utterly false. My life doesn’t appear to have slowed down one bit since being at home. I’m still studying for my exams, doing things for the youth team of my church and working on photography. I’m also now consistently working out and I’m even learning how to play the piano again. Busy, busy, busy. And I’m not even gonna bother counting things like cooking and watching movies, because I just feel like that’s a given.
Another thing that this lockdown has brought, is me staying up till some ridiculous times in the night, but yet still waking up early. Why I’m even up so late is beyond me, but yet every night, here I am again. Rubbish! Because who begged me? Sometimes it makes sense. I may genuinely actually be doing something. Majority of the time though, I have no idea why.
This 2020 really came to SHAKE the table and oh how it’s been shaken. I don’t even know whether to be happy or sad. It’s just a lot. One thing I am grateful for though is that it’s brought a sense of togetherness. Maybe not in all areas, but I can definitely see it in some. Take the youth at my church for example. We have definitely gotten a lot closer since being in lockdown, which in turn makes me half grateful for it. I do miss social interaction though. I can’t wait to see more than the people I live with. I miss my people’s man, especially my niece and nephews. But what can I do? Deal with it I guess, because we move!
Anyway, in this horribly confusing time, I pray that you’re all just keeping safe and well. Look after yourself physically, but please don’t forget about your mental. I feel that it’s important now more than ever to take the time to focus on that. I’m not gonna bother repeating what everyone’s been saying, because it’s not like we don’t know now. What I will say though, is do what you need to to get through this. That can literally be anything (within reason). Don’t feel like you have to be available to everyone right now. Take your time and do you. Because as much as we’re at home, doesn’t automatically mean we’re free.
And most importantly, remember that we will get through it. 2020 may shake us, but by God’s grace it wont kill us.
I eat cake 