How has loss shaped your identity? Lol. Where do I even start? Put simply, it's been 21 years and I'm still living in survival mode. 21 years and I'd say for the most part, I've been existing rather than living. 21 years and that little 7 year old girl is still trying to heal. Losing… Continue reading Question 4
Question 3
How did your family handle grief and what support did you have or need? I don’t know, but we probably didn’t handle it well. My grandad died the following year. I think it was after that, that I found out my grandma had died when dad was 12, or around that age, leading to him… Continue reading Question 3
Question 2
How do you understand what happened at the time? How could I not? That year was not normal, a year I will never be able to forget. Finding out she’d passed almost didn’t even shock me. The right question? When did I accept what had happened? Because I don’t think I actually really grieved. Mum… Continue reading Question 2
Let’s Try This Again
I’m back again. Can you tell I’m not very good at being vulnerable? I absolutely suck. I keep starting and stopping this journey and when I think I’ve gotten a handle on it, I always seem to do something that takes me several steps back. Deep down I want to and want to be able… Continue reading Let’s Try This Again
A Slap From Reality
The systems crashed at work again, so why not? It's been a while since I last wrote about anything. Definitely over a year. I just haven't really had anything to write about, or anything I've written just hasn't felt good enough. I miss it though. Writing used to be very therapeutic for me and maybe… Continue reading A Slap From Reality
I eat cake 